happy happy day.  I turned in my big paper today! :-) Now I just need to write one more small paper and do the 5 moduals I have left and I should be done! :-) Cool deal.  I am SO tired all of a sudden...i guess staying up till 5 am will do that to a person.  Oh well.  now I just need to pack to go home for the holidays.  ::smile::  turkey...yumm yumm ;-)

My dad is test driving a 2000 truck on Wednesday - I am so happy for him. Not to mention enxcited - cool truckness here we come.

Ok...I need to pack...and I can’t leave my room looking this totally messy over the break.

ok...this has got to be the biggest pile of shit i have ever seen on a webpage! http://www.ilovewhitefolks.com/ “Diversity is capable of destroying the White race.” This person has obviously lost their freaking mind!

I mean come on..it’s just a dressed up hate site! It’s unbelievable the amount of crap on the web today!  Having pride in your own race is one thing but what this person is saying is another whole ballgame!  Stupid, narrow minded bigots like this REALLY FUCKING PISS ME OFF!!!!

still not getting any work done on my paper.  every time i start it i get distracted by something. and that something had been work I didn’t realize I hadn’t done for my classes...oh goodness…

ok...im gonna at least TRY to write this paper.  I had a nightmate last night that I got so distracted that I had only 1 hour left to write 8 pages.

i just realized that Saturday is over and i didn’t write anything in here...crap...i wanted to do this every day...oh well...::sad::

spend most of the day playing with HTML.  wanting to try pop ups and inline frames. grr totally unproductive day academically.

spark match grrs me today.  i tried to change my email addy and when it did that it sent me a new verification URL - well my email messed it up and now i cant verify the account so I cant get it. i created a new account - sinclair - so at least I’ve got that. but i think my friend Adam messaged the old account and I cant get to it. ::sad::

hey you..yah you...you readin this right now...comment...i just wanna know that SOMEBODY besides my dumbass reads this shit...come on..i promise not to ask you what you think of it...or why you read it...just let me know...im dying here

the internet is just an interesting thing....a friend who I dated when I was in high shcool...the start of my senior year...like 1995...found me...totally by accident on the internet...actually now that I look at it..I THINK I messaged him first....hmm..how odd...I had NO idea who he was when I messaged him...I told him my name was Luka...and he said he had dated a girl named Luka a while back..and I said it was a conisidence that I dated a guy named Adam too...then I asked him to tell me about her...just for fun...but see...I KNEW it was me he was talking about...psychic I tell ya, Psychic!!  But anyway...just neat...The internet is amazing…

I heard a song today in english that I had only heard in french before.  It was called refugees in english...and in french its call les sans-papiers...and I am not sure those are the same...but it was the same song and the same voice singing it too..it was kinda odd. then a little bit later I heard a second song from the show..in english again…

such a lot of busy work.  doing a project at work where I have to go in and edit 94 HTML files...change about 4 things on each page...its such a pain...and boring too...i need to remember to take a cd to work tommrow so I can have something to listen to....

I hate when bear goes to the bar...alone too.  I mean..I wanted him to spend some time with me tonight...but he said he felt free so he wanted to go to the bar.  I mean I understand how he feels...but at the same time...I don’t understand why he would choose going to the bar alone...over spending some time with me. I mean...we have a finite amount of time to spend together....

the ballet...the first dance...was boring as HELL!  I almost left after the first dance.  It was typical stuffed skirt ballet.  But I stayed...and it got so awesome!  The second dance was a funny, unique bach piece making fun of polite society.  It was a RIOT!  The third dance was a dramatic, almost erotic piece.  It was just two dancers and the piano man. They were clothed in just flesh colored body suits...the little girl behind me kept saying...really loudly...grandma..they are NAKED!! It was hilarious.  the little girl sitting next to me..Madison...was too cute...all dressed up in her velvet and feathers...just too cute. the last dance was more traditional...but less traditional than the first dance...all in all I am glad I stayed.

I got my presentation finished! :-) GO me!

www.emode.com says this about my inner flavor: “Mmm ... peppermint! Crisp and refreshing, you’re the flavor of candy canes and after-dinner mints � everyone’s favorite comfort candies. If you were a season, youl’d be winter � bracing and energizing, but cozy, too. Your honesty and forthright personality make people feel like they’ve known you forever � they can’t help but be drawn to your sweet, fresh nature. Perhaps a little old-fashioned, and occasionally shy, you’re generally happy and well-liked. Traditional and invigorating, you’re a truly tasty treat.”

My email.com account has been bouncing emails and I don’t know why :-( It’s only 8% full. I am worried that I wont get my submissions for majic reviews because the email is bouncing...its all sorts of frustrating....ok...nap time now...me sleepy sleepy…

I’ve gotten some work done on my project...quite a bit actually..i just dont know where to go from here.

making a holiday gift giving list...i got a tough one for my mothers side side...i absolutely adore gift buying...finding the perfect gift is such a challenge and SUCH fun! As for getting gifts..thats fun too ::smiley::

I don’t really believe in Christmas...1...I am not Christian..and...2...I don’t believe that Christ was born in December.  I do give gifts - but more for the spirit of the winter, than for anything else. It’s dumb.  I give gifts and recieve gifts but I say I don’t celebrate it.  I sense a problem in the force....whoops...wrong story...err...yah..well..i like to buy stuff for people and at least this way they won’t get mad at me for spending money on them.

this is a line for the Midtown song “no place like home.” It’s such a true line and it just really struck me today.  I’ve always thought that regret as the most worthless emotion - you can’t do anything about regret, except let it hurt you, and hurt you, and hurt you.  You can’t change the past so regretting a decision is worthless.  This isn’t to say that you can’t be sorry for hurting someone else because of a decision - but you still can’t change it.  It’s an emotion and I can’t get rid of it sometimes.  I have no regrets.  I am sorry for people who I’ve hurt along the way - but those mistakes have made me - and them - who I am today. And frankly, I like who I am now! I REALLY like who I am now - flaws and all!

I hate illness.  I seem to have a lot of it this semester. Prolly nerves making myself sick.  Was ill this morning, missed classes...AGAIN!  Goodness - pisses me the fuck off! But I can’t change it now.  I can only go forward.  I did however get tons of work done at work - which is always cool.  Now I just need to get ready for my presentation tommrow......off to power point land…