My trip back to KC was....sleep deprived. I stayed out Monday night till 7am...and got up at 11. Tuesday night I stayed out till 6:30 and got up at 10. Wednesday night I stayed out till 4 and got up at 8:30. Of course there were reasons I stayed up that lot, and even got up so early. But I am SO not telling them all. *evil grin* Good friends, new and old were the main reasons really :-) And of course going to lunch with my mama. I had a great time, even without the sleep. :-)

I miss home. I don’t miss the weather. But the person who I think I am when I at home. I miss her. I don’t feel like the same person here in Tampa. Not really sure why, just do. It’s not really a bad thing, I don’t mind it so much. Just miss her.

I am a weird duck. I’ve always known that, but its nice to admit sometimes. I mean...I do stupid things...I feel stupid things...i get obsessed about strangers.

the only people who can really hurt me are the people i love. if I don’t love you then you can’t hurt me. when I open up the love door, I open the pain door too. I mean strangers can hurt my feelings, but its superficial. And the love thing...its not all mushy feelings..and in love love. Just a sense of caring. It’s easy for me to love...which also means its easy for me to get hurt. God damn that situation. Oh well. I like the love part. I like being so open to it. Gotta take the good with the bad huh?

you know those t shirts that say “i used to be schizophrenic, but now we’re OK.” People think they are so funny. They aren’t. I can’t wear them - for two reasons. They are psychologically incorrect. People with multiple personalities have DID, Disassociate Identity Disorder (cant spell) not Schizophrenic. Plus, someone how has DID has DID because of a traumatic event in their lives. The death of parent, abuse in childhood. Something happened to them to have their personality fracture into separate identities to deal with that trauma. Nothing funny about that there. I am too smart for those t shirts.

Am going home to KC on Friday! I SO SO SO can’t wait! We are landing in KC on Friday at about 4:45 and the hubbies parents are going to pick us up and then we get to have dinner with our families. I am so excited! All that yummy food to eat. Plus on Tuesday night we are doing a blast from the past and we are going to watch Buffy all together. (we being The Mr Q&0153;, The Best Friend&0153; and me)

haven’t had a smoke since the 27th. (of October)

i so dislike pushy people. today when I was driving there was a bit of a jam. I was turning left in the far left lane so there was another lane next to me. As soon as the light turned green the guy in the next lane over started honking his horn. I was a bit freaked - thinking I was being honked at - so I was making faces and looking around. I look up and the girl in front of me is yelling at me from her car. I could make out that she was saying something about going when she could and that I should hold I. I was pissed. It wasn’t me honking. I could tell what was going on with the cars in front of me...i was trying to figure out who was honking. I wanted to get out of my car and run up to her and say “IT WASN’T ME!!”

i love Halloween. this year it sucked. I did nothing. I saw no one. :-( I didn’t even have any candy to hand out.