Happy Halloween! It’s my favorite day, other than my birthday, of the year. Yah for Halloween!

its not weird to be to do nothing on the weekend. To sit at home and watch TV in my underwear. I am a bearcat, and bearcats are notorious for their laziness on the weekend. Bearcats have this reputation cause Northwest Missouri State is a “suitcase” campus. That means that the majority of people who live on Campus go home/away for the weekend. The campus is D-E-A-D on the weekends. For most of my college career I did nothing on the weekends, so now...when I spend the entire weekend in my underwear, its not that odd. Well..for ME it isn’t odd.

The Mr Q&0153; just sang a lullaby to Kayce in attempts to get her to go to sleep...and it WORKED! she stopped trying to kiss him, and put her head in his nose/mouth and laid down and shut her eyes. That was cool!

ya know what I hate...I really hate these new Marijuana commercials.

The first one that bugged was the one where the two boys are smoking a bong in their fathers study. He then, stoned, picks up a gun that was in the desk. His buddy asks “Is that loaded” and boy # one says no, right as the gun goes off. The problem with this commercial is that loaded gun in the house, not that they were stoned. Teenagers are stupid enough, totally sober, to pick up a loaded un and think its not loaded. Them being stoned has nothing do with it. Their message is “Marijuana ... harmless?” How about...loaded gun in house..harmless?

The second one that bothers me is one where two boys are smoking pot in a bathroom after a concert. Then the cops bust in and arrest them. You cannot use the fact that you can get arrested for it as a reason to keep kids away from it. It’s not harmful to be high cause you can get arrested it - its a crime that you can get arrested. It’s ridiculous.

The third one that bothers me, and it REALLY bothers me, is the one where this cute blond girl gets stoned and kinda passes out on the couch next to a boy. He then proceeds to SEXUALLY ASSAULT the girl. You even hear her say no! How doest pot impair HER judgment? She fucking said no! She could have been drunk, which is legal and apparently not harmful, and the same thing could have happen. They make it seem as those she was sexually assaulted because she was high; which is a CROCK of shit! It’s presenting an image that because she was intoxicated she asked for it. I fucking HATE that commercial! No woman asks to be sexually assaulted; stoned, drunk, or otherwise. Sexually assault is ALWAYS unwanted. And her being stoned did not impair her judgment from that. You even FUCKING HEAR HER SAY NO! This commercial REALLY pushes buttons for me, can ya tell?

Kayce has gotten so big. She’s also INSANE! She’s been running round my feet and attacking them since I got home. I snapped a lil picture of us just a minute ago. She is such a sweet kitty - cept for the attempt at attacking my face ::cool::

Son of a bitch, I tried to post this at 6:00 but it wouldn’t go.

I feel like crap. Not physically like crap, other than I need a shower. But mentally. I haven’t don’t crap all weekend. I had three goals for myself. 1. Clean out my car, 2. Clean my apt, and 3. bake some bread. I haven’t done any of those things. I did look up some bread recipes, and I did a load of dishes, and I did clean my desk off a little, but that’s it. Here is it Sunday night at 6:00pm and I haven’t done anything I set out to do this weekend. I’ve been a total bum. I slept till 5 yesterday, and then today I slept till 2 but fell asleep again before 3 with the kitty sleepin on me and slept till nearly 5:45. I feel like such a lump.

Halloween is Thursday and I LOVE Halloween! I don’t have a costume and I don’t know If ive got the money to get one either :( It sucks major tukas! Halfway there is playing Wednesday night along with the beloved River Chicken and I was going to drink, but I think that may have changed. Myke (HT) says that we should wear our costumes for the show Wednesday night, so I may try to find something before then. I don’t. I don’t think I’ve got the money to spend like I was hoping I could. I may just get some wings and go as an angel...that’s so lame though.

ya know what’s worse than being in love with someone you cannot have?

being in love with someone who doesn’t even exist.

I so don’t like the “Real World”. I used to like the show. It used to be about how people interact with each other. It’s not about how much sex we can cram into one show. The only people that are on the show anymore are these impossibly beautiful people who are shitty to each other and themselves. Its fucking ridiculous. And what’s worse; its lame. Who cares about these people? The shows didn’t use to be like this, and since I know what they can be, I won’t watch the crappy new ones

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We just got back from the vet with Kayce. Not so good news to share. She has tested positive for Feline Immunodeficiency Virus (FIV). Basically its going to do to her what HIV does to humans. It weakens her immune system so that she is more likely to get sick; and when she does get sick its going to be much harder to get her well again. She may live a really long time, she may not. We don’t know. We are supposed to take her back to the vet in 3 months and have her tested again.

This sucks. This sucks more than anything else going on in my life right now. I’ve fallen in love with her already. Full on, blow out, love for the Kayce.