it’s amazing how a day can go. last night when we went to bed we found that we had left the window open a crack in our room, and we were gone for 10 days - and we live in Florida. It rained. Can you guess what happened? Yupp, our bedroom flooded. Just the part right under the window, which was our bed and our phone. the floor is dry now, but the mattress is still wet. tonight we will be sleeping much like we did last night, me on the love seat and hubby on the futon.

when I got up this morning I felt rested and good. Even though I had slept on the love seat. I got my stuff un packed a little bit, and went to work. Got to listen to my new cd (Up) on the drive over and just generally had a good day. After work I went to the University mall and got a new datebook - it was 6.41. I also went to Burdines and got a late Christmas present for myself. I got a bottle of Happy body smoother. I am slowly building up my collection. I did see a bottle of stuff called Happier...its concentrated Happy. Oh oh oh, how I want that. So..I had a good day.

Then during the process of the evening I started to feel bad. I started feeling like I hadn’t gotten anything done and never do. The Mr Q&0153; made some comments, albeit innocent, that really got to me. Some days my self esteem is low, and tonight it was. I also got into the feeling that my Kayce likes The Mr Q&0153; better than me. I also couldn’t figure out a design for my website, and I worked on it for hours. Damn no creativity.

The night is starting to go up again though. Terry is online and that’s good. I also got some more Gatorade Ice Lime.

I wanted to post a little note to some former lovers. (of which I’ve had a few.)

It would be to two of them, Steve & Bill. When I heard those words it just reminded me of the two of them. And how glad I am that I have come so far.

And one to JUST Steve would be this one.

These songs are both from her new album up that I got for Xmas. I dated Steve my senior year of HS and Bill my freshman year of college.

we’re finally home. I’m so tired. the flight wasn’t too bad. i miss kc, but Ive missed Tampa too. I need to redo the layout of my main page soon, just can’t decide what to use. It will prolly happen within the next week or so. All of a sudden I got really really tired so I think I will be heading to bed soon.

we go home today. currently we are all packed, and just hanging out with our parents till it’s time to leave for the airport. My MIL made us lasagna and fried eggplant (my ABSOLUTE favorite) for lunch. The Mr Q&0153; I packed before we are, what an ordeal that was, so we are just kinda hanging out. I am sad to be leaving, but glad to be going home. I need a vacation from my vacation.

I got to see Terry last night. I hadn’t seen Terry since his high school graduation even though we talk nearly every day on AIM. It was a nice visit all around. Chris let The Mr Q&0153; play on the PS2. He really liked it snd now he wants one.Vice City they had a nice time bonding over the video game playing.

Today after lunch we ate our wedding cake. It was surprisingly good for having been in the freezer for 16 months.

so I stayed the night at the Morgan Haus (house) last night. we had a really good time. we had chicken (cooked in the George Foreman) salad, baked french fries and broccoli. It was a nice dinner. We then watched the movie 2 days in the valley. It’s a very ”Pulp Fiction”eseq movie. We then watched, after much debate, Amadeus. The incredible story of Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, told in flashback mode by Antonio Salieri - now confined to an insane asylum. We watched it on a DVD and Keziah & Mike had just gotten. It was a weird one cause i t was a 2 sided disc. We started the movie and none of us realized until it was over that we had started it on the 2nd side. So we watched the 2nd half of the movie first. It was a riot.

I did have a nice time talking with Keziah this morning. We watched about 2 hours of TV and just chatted about stuff. I didn’t know this, but she didn’t talk until she as 4. Apparently she when she started talking at 4 she started talking in full sentences. We joked that she didn’t need to talk, she just let her sister Zara do it for her :)

When I left Keziahs this morning I went to the Antioch Mall to Sears to see if I could find the roll on Happy that I wanted. They don’t sell Clinique there. Boo hoo. I then went to Target and got a a new bra and underwear set, a new black undershirt and two new cd’s. All for under 30 bucks. My mom says that she should go shopping with me. I’m telling ya, I know how to SHOP! I got the new Good Charlotte CD The Young and the Hopeless I’ve liked most of what I have listened to so far. The other CD that I got was The Donnas Spend the Night. I haven’t listened to it yet, but the single that I have heard is called “Take it off” and it’s the reason I got the CD in the first place.

Tonight we are going to dinner with Chris and Mary Beth. We are going to the Salty Iguana near the duplex. I haven’t seen them since my wedding, so it will be nice to spend some time with them. They just got married in October.

Last night I had multiple freaky dreams. One involved a girl that looked like a cross between my SIL Tinkerbelle and a girl I went to college with Leslie. She had this way cute boyfriend, who looked like a guy I have a crush on from Tampa. His name is John. Well, anyway. She bascially told him that he could/should sleep with me once before they got married. And I REALLY wanted to sleep with him. So it was a good thing. Once we found out we started trying to make out and stuff but we didn’t want her to see us so we were kinda sneaking around. It was weird.

The second dream was of me and The Mr Q&0153;. He/We were in the army o f some sort and we snuck off to have sex with each other. Some huge black lady was searching us out and when she found the room we were in (she didnt know it was us) she got all excited. She was saying she would have our heads and stuff. When she opened the door we were like “fine. you caught us. But...we are married...to each other..so there is nothing you can do.”

The third one was about a party. I had a pretty, sexy, red dress on. My hair was wet. The party was an outdoor party that got moved down two blocks to an inside one. I picked up a bunch of presents to help carry them down to the new house and they broke open on the way. As soon as I got to the new place I ran upstairs to hide the broken presents. When I came down to look for tape I could hear rumbilings that people thought I stole the presents. I didn’t say anything to anybody cause I knew the truth. I found the tape & went back up stairs to try to fix the presents. Then this girl, who I guess was the giver of the presents, came up after me trying to figure out what I was doing. Once she figured out that I hadn’t stolen them, she helped me fix them.

I told you they were freaky.

We are going to visit The Mr Q&0153;s grandma Hardis today. (My MIL’s Mom) We haven’t seen her yet this week, and we haven’t seen her since last thanksgiving. It will be nice to see her. She is very nice and has always made me feel welcome. I don’t know if The Mr Q&0153; is actually up yet, but I’ve gotten up and taken a shower. I haven’t blow dried my hair yet, but it’s cause I like to let it air dry a little bit first. I think it’s less hard on my hair that way. (oh..that’s better I changed the resolution to 1024X768) My MIL is cleaning up the house - she’s very dilligent about that. :) I need to go make sure The Mr Q&0153; is up and blow dry my hair. I also got to do my makeup and stuff. Go me.

Ya know..I realized that since I have been in KC I have done my hair and make up EVERY day that I was going to see my mother. I knew I wouldn’t see her yesterday and I didn’t do my hair and makeup. I realized last night that it actually bothers me that she never says that I am beautiful anymore. I feel like she is always talking about my weight and how I should be healither. I know that what she wants for me is only the best, but it sometimes makes me feel like she doesn’t love me for who I am, only for what I look like. I know it isn’t true. I know she loves me, but she just doesnt ever say that I am beautiful anymore. [insert Rick james voice here] I’m a very emotional girl. she’s a very freaky girl. Super Freak [end voice]

today has been a busy day. It didn’t start TOO too early but it’s been busy none the less. I got up to DrummerBoy playing his drums - correction - I was woken UP by DrummerBoy playing the drums. It wasn’t horrible, just startaling. What bugged me was that The Mr Q&0153; didn’t come in to wake me, yet acted like I was sleeping UBER late or something. Bugs me when he does that. After eating a ham sandwhich I went to Walmart to exchange the PS2 controller for something else. I ended up getting the cp UP by Shania Twain. I thought about getting Christina Agulerias new cd stripped but decided on the Shania twain cd cause..well..it comes with two cd’s in it and you can download the third set of mixes from her website. I’ve listened to the whole cd (the red version) while driving today. The red version is the more “elecrtic, rockier-edged” sounding version. It’s good. I enjoy it. I hope Anthony is jealous. I also got some new Rimmell eye shadow and lipgloss. They are pretty colors (the eyeshadow) and then the lip gloss is clear. I have enjpyed every product that I have purchased by Rimmell. The colors are beautiful and the products are great. I tried to find a website with these products, but I haven’t been able to.

I then went to see the movie Lord of the Ring:The Two Towers. All I can say is
Oh. My. God!

It’s SUCH a good movie. I really enjoyed it. I got confused to as to who people were and such, and had to look away during some the the scarier battle scenes but I really enjoyed the movie. It goes at a faster pace than the first one. (it was still 3 and half hours long, but I didn’t ever have to leave to go pee.)
Last night at the Hardly Christmas Keziah got me a bottle of Happy shower wash. YAH! :) I want to have every product, mostly cause I love to build the scent. She also got me some glittery body gel and foam in a holiday scent from Bath and Body works. Those are cool too! :) I think that the glitter will stay on my skin after I shower too, which is really cool. I LOVE glitter.

Today is my MIL’s birthday. The Mr Q&0153; and I got her a box of choc covered cherried (her favorite.) Tinkerbelle & Engineer got her a really nice scrabble game and DadC (my FIL) got her a cell phone. I feel like we are the “poor” relatives, ya know. We get her the crappiest gifts. On their own they are good, but when compared to what the other kids get them -I feel like the suck. She won’t open DrummerBoy’s present until he gets here tommrow, although I am sure he wanted her to open it today.

We got to spend some time with Jeff today. It doesn’t feel like any time has passed. Except that the theme of our discusions and conversation topics are a bit different now. We talked more about the army and how much basic sucks, than we talked about sex, drugs and rock N roll. It WAS nice to see him though. We both miss him very much.

it’s been a fun day. we’ve finished eating and now we are going to the presents. I am hoping that Ziah got me something good. I’ve gotten some nice presents but nothing that I really really wanted. I am going to Walmart tomorrow to exchange my PS2 controller, so I am hoping to get something cool there. Don’t get me wrong - I don’t mean to sound like I am complaining. I love the things that I have been given. I just wanted some specific things that I haven’t gotten yet. Plus, a lot of the double gifts we were given (the ones for the 2 of us) are more for him than for me. IE Play station games or controllers. But...I DO really like the Grand Turismo game we got. I get to drive really really fast. :)

Merry Christmas to all,
and to all a good night