My friend Cris called me tonight (this morning.) As of 6pm CST March 8th 2003 Zac Mountenay is no longer with us. This sucks! This is too hard. Gimp and I talked for over and hour about all sorts of shit. All camp years and after party years blend together. I am very glad that I got to see Zac one last time at the after party this past year. I can actually remember the last time I saw him, which after yesterday is a very good thing. His memorial will be Thursday night and im totally bummed that I can’t be there. He is going to be cremated and his ashes taken to Canada. Zac was a cannuck at heart. good bye Zac - I love you.

I installed a CGI script from Aardvark Industries that will track how many clicks I get on certain URL’s. I am tracking a few links to see if I am actually generating traffic. Of course I am tracking this link too. I mostly want to see if people are actually using my style sheets, and my links to flywheel and stuff like that. What I am most excited about is that, with very little help, I installed a CGI script on my website. I rock :)

{picture Lost} Kayce has gotten so big. I have posted a pic here that really emphasizes that. She is a very kissy kitten, always has been , and hopefully always will be. This was an accident. We didn’t mean to take the exact same picture twice, but I am really glad that we did. In the top pic she’s about 5 months old, and in the bottom one she’s about 2 months old. Notice how much longer she is in the top pic. I love my baby girl so much. I have more pics that I will be posting soon, but as this is the 6th picture I have posted in a row, I figured I would give it a rest for a while. :)

I am very sad, but I won’t be going to see Flywheel on saturday night afterall. My friend Elizabeth can’t come drive - and my car probbaly wouldn’t make the drive. So..unless I rent a car or something I don’t know how I will be getting there. It’s ok. They have more dates in the Tampa/Clearwater area this month so I will def see them again. They are playing two sep times on St Patricks day - maybe I can see them twice in one day! :) That would be cool.

spam sucks. i get like 10 spams a day. granted that is low for some people, but it was making me crazy. I downloaded a progam called SpamPal and it’s workin wonders! :) You should try it out too.

My friend gimpy called me today. It seems as though my old friend Zac is in the hospital with acute kidney failure and they don’t expect him to make it. He was diagnosed with Leukemia in the spring of 2001. He was well enough this past summer to come Camp MOJA and he even had campers. I have known Zac since I was 14. He was my first MOJA boyfriend. The summer after I graduated from HS Zac was the head counselor. I gave him SUCH at hard time at camp that week that it was only inevitable that we would start dating again after that week. We didn’t date very long, but that’s how camp things are really. Short and sweet :) (just like camp.) I do hope that the doctors are wrong and that he will pull out of it. His kids deserve their daddy & the world deserves to keep Zac in it.

faith is on angel tonight. S W E E T!! :) mmm Eliza Dushku

last week I asked my friend Holly when she thought Rob would be back in town. She said that I should give it 6 months. Tonight when I walked in the bar....Rob was there! :) I nearly shrieked :) I was so excited! :) He’s only in town till like the 25th though :( But some time is better than no time. I was SO excited to see him! He has a new tattoo. It looks like an exit wound - the entry wound is on the front of the arm. It’s scary - but I like it! :) He was all flirty tonight too - which was awesome! :) Seeing him again only made me realize how much I missed him when he was gone. He’s so fucking cool! My Sheriff Crush� was out tonight too. He drives the prettiest orange/rust/sunset Ram truck. I’m sure he would be pleased that I called his truck pretty - but I don’t care. Having Rob AND B there tonight just rocked my socks! :) I am actually glad that Pat, Steven, Jimmi and Sandy weren’t around tonight - my head may very well have exploded. :) I did however look hot as hell tonight! :) I just need more cleavage revealing shirts though. I’ve got a nice rack and need to show it off more :)