Friday, April 30, 2004
Boy do I have a whopper for this one. It's a bit confusing though and it's long so bear with me. First off, the players: me, the ass (my ex boyfriend), and my Love (the man I've been with for over five years now and whom I love dearly).
So, almost six years ago now, I was with the ass. He was kinda of a loser, didn't want to work, couldn't manage money, kinda just...ick. But for whatever reason, I had gotten entangled in a relationship with him. In fact, we were living together. (*gag*). But things weren't good. I didn't love him and it was more out of situational need rather then actual emotion that kept me there.
Enter a new guy at my work. Funny, smart, cute. We talked. We chatted. We IM'd across the company's intranet during the day. It really started off innocent. Someone new to talk to. You see, I was very lonely. The ass had finally gotten a job, but it was a night one. And so I'd catch a ride home, be alone at my house without a car, with no one to talk to, no computer and no cable. A very sad existance. So, meeting someone new was nice.
He wanted to hang out after work. I didn't want to at first because I didn't want to be inappropriate. (Stupid me, loyal even to an ass that I didn't even love.) Finally, I agreed. I couldn't face the idea of sitting at home alone and so depressed that actually doing something sounded fun.
Things slowly changed. We talked on the phone all the time. We went and saw a few movies and we went to the beach. Nothing ever happened (not even so much as a kiss), but I knew that I couldn't keep living such a dead and dreary life as I had with the ass. It was just killing me.
I told the ass I wanted to break up. That we needed to plan to move out of the house. He cried, begged and pretty much went crazy. In my stupid desire to minimize the hardship of it, I agreed that we'd pay one more month's rent so he'd have time to make arrangements for new place to live, etc. My big mistake.
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